Monday, December 29, 2003
Ahh so gifts were exchanged between adam & myself, a very merry christmas for both. Oh and I found out he's staying for the summer! Yay! He's not leaving for the army this summer! Of course took he forgot to tell me for awhile, so inbetween hugging him, i smacked him on the head. Hehe it was a loving slap however. So I just got back from winter play girls night, which was awesome by the way! I slept for 2 & 1/2 hours, and for some very odd reason I'm not tired. Hmmm this is peculier, but anyhow, I can't decide whether or not I should shower now, or later. I think I shall shower a little later, before I go to work, but I must brush my teeth now. So I came home with brooke's shirt on .... it was getting too hot for me to wear a sweatshirt so she lent me hers, and slept in her tank top. I was most appreciative.
Some of the girls for some odd reason decided that watching Requiem for a Dream would be a good movie for girls night. I'm not sure why, I didn't stay and watch. I'm going to watch it yes, but I'd rather not watch it with a bunch of girls at a party. I will most likely end up watching it with adam, who is going to have to bring kleenex because I'm sure I will "leak" as brooke says.
You know, I still have people that I must give them their gifts. That includes: amy, mandy, jackie, hollingsworth, and adam's parents. Hmmm am I missing anyone? Oh opps, yeah my real dad too. And with all this of just me randomly chatting I belive I'll go brush my teeth now, and then eat brunch, and brush again. Mmm it's still weirding me out that I'm not tired, eh it works. Alrighty kids, God bless
laura .::.
10:23 AM
Thursday, December 25, 2003
MERRY CHRISTMAS! Sorry I just have to make up for that last blog, I mean sheesh I want to hug me, I sound that pitiful. But all is well now, oddly enough I found my christmas spirit when I went to midnight mass with adam and his family last night. Now that was an experience, man the catholics have areobics in their church it's kewl! You don't have time to get bored, you're standing one second, sitting, or chanting the next. Heh yeah I just sat there confused through some of it. But it's all good. I didn't really have that much of a choice if I wanted to go or night either. I got to adam's, he made me a grilled cheese sandwhich, then his mother whirled into the room, gave me my christmas present ( a dorm blankie, very kewl !) and asked me if I'd like to go to mass with them all in about 5 mins. I swear to you, that woman doesn't take the time to breathe sometimes. Heh so I went with them, and I'm glad I did, even though Adam looked like he was going to fall asleep. =) Heh I suppose it's interesting to me bc I don't get dragged to it every week.
Anyhow, MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone, and I will see you all soon! *BIG HUG!* There now I've sucessfully hugged everyone, ha! ;)
God bless you all.
laura .::.
6:38 PM
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
And here it is Christmas eve. What do you want me to say? Merry Christmas? Sure ok, Merry Christmas.... I can't seem to feel that much about it except i just want to lay my head down and cry. Maybe if I just keep crying then I'll float away to a happier place. Because for some reason I can't get very happy right now. It doesn't feel very christmasy. *sighs* I'm sorry to ruin your mood guys, have a wonderful holiday season. bye
laura .::.
12:28 AM
Saturday, December 20, 2003
So we're out of school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For a few weeks anyhow, and people are back yay! WELCOME HOME COLLEGE KIDS! Ok so today rocked even if i feel really horrible now. Let's see only 1 real final today, and then Adam & I went shopping from about 2pm-3:30pm. Then we went to his house and played with his sister's puppy jack! He's soooooo adorable! Then we went to Hollingsworth's b-day party (Jack came too) then adam left. I stayed at Hollingsworth's the rest of the night, and found some blackmail pictures that she has of me that I forgot about....eep. Mark gave me a lift home, and now I'm sitting here in front of the computer, willing the room to stop spinning, willing my stomach to stop being nautious. I ate a cup of goldfish and that was about it for today. I feel really really not well and considering I have to get up in 7 &1/2 hours to go to work I should probably sleep soon....maybe. Alrighty ttyl God bless good night
laura .::.
12:41 AM
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
Ok so we're in computer's class and Ms. Mullins.....yah.....enough said....anyhow she's reviewing for our final, and I should be paying attention, but my attention span is really short right now. That's probably because I didn't get to sleep till 4am, then I got up at 7am, and I'm still sick. Hehe good planning on my part I know, then again the coughing was keeping me up.....that and the t.v. ;)
So let's see Friday I went shopping w/ mark & bought presents for adam (yay!) ok so now I only have, what? 10 people left to shop for? Heh heh mmmm yeah
Saturday I get called on my cell phone from Adam while I'm on my way to my sis' s house to take her shopping, it goes a little something like this:
A:"Hey Honey"
L:"Hey, how are you? I thought you had wrestling"
A: "Well I have good news and bad news"
L:"...Ok what's the good news?"
A:"The good news is I'm done with wrestling today"
L: "...Ok what's the bad news?"
A:"Oh, I'm at the Emergicare"
L:" WHAT??? OH my God are you ok, what happened, who, ARE YOU GOING TO BE OKAY?"
A: "Honey, Honey, calm down, it's ok I just bit through my lip and my nose is bleeding because some kid jacked me in the face"
L*sputtering* "but, but are you sure you're going to be ok? Who did this? I'll kill them!"
A:" Honey, it's ok, really, and you're not going to kill anyone, I love you, I'll call you once they're done fixing my lip, bye."
L:" But.. but... ok I love you too, bye."
ACK! Yah so I was freaking out the whole time I was shopping w/ my sister, bc hmm I tend to over worry? Hehe yeah just a little bit, but he called later & was fine, didn't even need stitches.
So that night he & I went to Kobe's steakhouse to have company dinner w/ the people I work w/. It was really good and a lot of fun!
Then he and I were trying to find Ariel's house for a good 1/2 hour to get to her party... then some crazy stuff happened, and we couldn't find the damn house!
So we just went back to my house, and watched a movie. Sunday...well you know from my last blog how Sunday went...but lunch w/ Mom was good at least.
OOOOH and I made a christmas cd last night! Boys choirs from Cambridge England have such beautiful voices!
So at 4 am this morning I think I decided sleep would be good....yah maybe ;) Now I'm trying to get change from people so I can buy orange juice at lunch because I'm sick and poor. *sneezes, and hacks* Change anyone? ;)
Alright I'm out of here, ttyl God bless buh bye kids! STAY HEALTHY PLEASE, FOR THE LOVE STAY HEALTHY!
laura .::.
9:47 AM
Sunday, December 14, 2003
Ok I try not to do these too often bc I don't like to whine on my blog. But I feel like shit. I can't stop coughing, and that burns the back of my throat. And my whole body just aches and hurts, people are driving me crazy and I all I want is for someone to hug me, and say they care and they love me. But eveyone is busy doing their own thing. And I really hate it when If YOU DON"T KNOW, then stop! ok just stop please, just stop. Make it all stop just no more that's it. *sighs* ack, onto finals week. it really was a good weekend, today was just a weird day, and I'm not in the mood to talk of my cheerful weekend. And I'll tell ya about it later. ttyl God bless buh bye
laura .::.
10:50 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
SNOW DAY!
laura .::.
2:25 PM
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
So we're in school again, and again I'm doing this during computers class. Speaking of school, one would think that heavy snow & already formed layers of ice would cancel school, but ohhhh no, not our school! Not Millard FUCKING North, we never miss school!
Dah fucking over achievers, but even the overachivers don't want to be here today, no one wants to be here, Kiewit has no power & therefore no school, and apparently Millard West and Millard South don't have school either. WHY??????
On the plus side, Adam brought me dinner at play practice last night (arby's) awe! I had help eating my curly fries though. ;)
Then Allie, Layne (sp?), Megan & I went underwear shopping. I bought a extremly cute thong, but Allie bought her slip for the play, it's really pretty!
I tried on this renissance looking underwear dress it's sooo pretty, it also cost 150$ but all the same. Hehe so even though something crawled up fisch's butt and died there last night, it was a good night. Honestly teachers all around the school are really stressed out lately. Hmm I think Janet and I are going Christmas shopping tonight since there's no play practice and I have a lot of folks left to shop for. Alright well I'm out of here, ttyl God bless buh bye
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laura .::.
1:36 AM
Sunday, December 07, 2003
Ok yay blogger is working! OK good because I have fears & frustrations I must vent now. I don't know about you people, and I don't care if you pull the macho card out, fine that's your progative, but I am freaked out about college and yeah it scares the hell out of me. I mean I filled out housing arrangements for Northwest Missouri state today. That's when it sort of slapped me in the face. Good lord this is really going to happen! And now I'm thinking about going to chicago???? I mean am I fucking crazy? (about college kids, not in general) =)
COLLEGE PEOPLE! WE are leaving, gone...buh bye... EVERYTHING CHANGES! *pants* ok there i'm doing a little better, not really. I mean I cried twice about this today. *sighs* btw it makes me sad when people are angsty, I just don't know what to do w/ them. That was a side note, but I mean honestly now, HOW in the hell can you not tell me that you're scared. AND THIS IS CRAP, I love adam w/ all my heart but if i'm freaking about college, please do not downplay it, just hug me & tell me that you love me. *sighs* I don't know I'm just ubuer freaky about college, and everyone's like "Oh it's no big deal" YOU KNOW WHAT? Fuck oFF! It's a big deal to me ok?
I mean we're gone, that's it, buh bye ( and I said that already didn't I ?) *rereads* damn yes, yes I did.
*paces* WILL YOU MISS ME AT ALL? Any of you? I mean yes sure you can say it now, but why in the hell can't I know what the future will bring, dear lord, just let me skip ahead in years so I don't have to go through the toturous agonoy of not knowing. *pant pant* ..... I need a hug. =( ttyl God bless buh bye
I feel pukey, oh so pukey, I fell pukey, and dizzy and .....tired! And I pity any healthy sapp, cuz feeling this way kicks ass...... riiiight. So I'm still working on christmas shopping, and I'm super dizzy, but you people never comment on my fucking blog, why is that? Hmmm oh well, pirates *purrs* johhny (too tired to do the dance) ttyl God bless I have to go pass out now *trots away* whooooo room's spinning again.
laura .::.
12:23 AM
Friday, December 05, 2003
Hmm the computers at my school are really starting to like me. We were supposed to take a computers quiz today, but "the network wasn't working" Ok, great! Because now I have about 20 minutes to roam the internet & blog. Hey every little thing is exciting, ok?
*yawns* So I'm really tired, and my balance has yet to fix itself, and my head swims & semi-pounds, and whooo if someone pushed me I'd probably fall over. No lie, when adam hugged me on wednesday I almost fell over.
It's really weird, and the fact that it hasn't gone away yet rather worries me. Hmm oh well.
Ok I have something that really bothers me, and maybe it's just because of past things, and I don't know if you guys have heard of these, but there are pro ana sites that teach girls how to be anorexic. It's really sick, they have pictures of girls and many bones protruding. They say things like "Bone is beautiful"
They also have the ana commandments like "I shalt not eat today" and shit like that.
And I was reading this online diary thing (diary project, i post poetry there) and there was this 13 year old girl saying how she'd been to ana sites to learn how to become anorexic because she couldn't get the hang of it.
*slams head into wall repeatedly* (oh geez that wasn't good for my head) WHY? WHY WHY WHY FUCKING WHY? Who in the fuck ever thought anorexia was a motherfucking game? It's not, and it gets out of hand really fast. DAH! Ok I'm gonna go or you'll get a 10 pg rant on this. But let's end on happy note, couples night tonight & pirates night at tyler's tomorrow! Whoo that's exciting, ok ttyl God bless buh bye
laura .::.
9:49 AM
Thursday, December 04, 2003
You know, writing papers at 3am is not a smart idea. 8 pgs only to discover today that I forgot to put in qoutes. *grins* oh well, i'm too fucking sleepy to care. I am so glad tomorrow's friday! Should write more, I have more to blog about but well, I got 3 & 1/2 hrs of sleep, and I'm tired. Ttyl God bless buh bye
I'M DONE! I'M DONE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA it only took me till 3:10am, but I'M DONE! HAHA YES! Let's see I started at 10:20pm and i'm done 3:10 am. That's......almost 5 hours. Blech that's yucky, BUT I CONQUERED IT! And I would jump up and down, but well I'm tired, and worn out, and i've had a headache plus lack of balance most of the night. Actually the headache, lack of balance, room spinning stuff has been happening for the past few days now. I'm not really sure why. wheeee there it spins again, alright peter is telling me to get some sleep.....yes all 3 &1/2 hours of it, which I suppose is really better than nothing, but now I'm just tempted to stay up all night, that way I won't over sleep. Hmm now I'm not sure, then again I did just bs a paper for 5 hours and that makes me tired just to think about. Dah I think I may just leave my dad a note asking him to wake me up at 6:50 if i'm not awake or something. Haha hey look, my tittle really fits, hahahahahahahahaha.....yeah perhaps sleep really is for the best. The 3 am ramblings part, not 40 helens, oh nm good night. ttyl God bless, night night
laura .::.
3:20 AM
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
Alright alright I know I should be starting/working/finishing my paper, and I will, BUT i have to blog about this first. Ok so apparently when adam showed his macbeth video to his English class (which I was in) they thought I was hot. Hehe awe that's sweet. But Adam & Liz are yelling at me to go start/work/finish it so ttyl God bless buh bye kids
"So it is down to you, and it is down to me. You are very skilled for you have beaten my Spanard, and you are also very brave for you have beaten my giant. Clearly we are at an impass, I can't compete with you physically, and you're no match for my brain."
"Really, you're that smart?" HAHA no unfortuantly Westly I am not that smart bc if I were I would not be sitting here on Wednesday night at 7:40pm about to start my rough draft for my 8-10 PAGE RESEARCH PAPER! WHy why why why why do I put this shit off? That quote is from Princess Bride btw in case you're curious. FUCK! I'm off to do my paper. ttyl God bless, buh bye
Haha unfortuantly it's so very very true.
laura .::.
9:49 AM
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
WE WATCHED PIRATES OF THE CARRIBBEAN AT PLAY PRACTICE! *does Johnny dance* I love you allie for bringing it! OOOH that made my night *does another Johnny dance* JOHNNY JOHNNY JOHNNY!Johnny johnny johnny johnny whooo that's starting to look weird! OK Now I MUST DO MY RESEARCH PAPER! IT IS DUE THURSDAY, if any of you see me on aim YELL AT ME! I NEED TO STOP PROCRASTINATING! I WILL GET THIS FUCKING THING DONE! *purrs* johnny johnny...NO FOCUS! *In a much more depressed voice* Research paper Research paper.....wooo =( mmmph alright ttyl God bless buh bye
laura .::.
9:50 PM
Monday, December 01, 2003
So good morning, we're in school and technically it's not morning anymore, but hush my head is spinning & things are making me dizzy. I'm not sure why, but I seem to get dizzy a lot lately. I definetly found out that I mother adam when's he's sick even when he is crabby. Oh well better than getting annoyed w/ it, and I think he appreciates it. Eh it's all good.
Work today, and then play practice, so once again no time for dinner or any meal today for that matter. Work is from 4-6 then play practice is 6:30-9:30 (ish)
I also may have to sneak out of play practice to go see Janet's one act at skutt either tonight or tomorrow, but don't worry Winter play girls, i have not forgotten Thursday, which btw you guys should be proud of me, Burke tried to tickle it out of me what we were doing but I held strong & said nothing. hehe
Although we have a drawer full of chocolate at work *drools* and I may just grab that & a thing of coke & have that be my dinner like last week.
*thinks* or perhaps I'll just skip food today, I ate a lot yesterday anyhow. We'll see. =) Ttyl kids, God bless buh bye